Peace of mind; how ya doin?

"If you do not find peace in yourself, you will never find it anywhere else."
-Um, some wise man

There honestly wasn't a name to give credit to in regards to the quote. But I had to use it; it really does some justice and truth to the world. Largely my own. To ultimately be happy, I have found, you gotta be happy with yourself. "Derp, who doesn't know that??!!!" Okay, there is a difference between knowing and understanding. Being happy almost always involves being in a state of peace. Unless you find happiness in risking your life climbing mountains or something. But you get the point. The whole happiness thing hit me today after dealing once again with my depressed mother (divorces do that to ya), trying to comfort her and explain to her that there really is a way to be happy again. I mean, I found happiness after the whole fiasco just days afterwords. But I never have been able to get a grip on what her deal is, and why she's dragged it on for months and months. And that is where, for whatever reason, it hit me. The difference that her and I have as people at the moment is that I AM happy as to where I am as a person in life, and wouldn't trade it for anything (regardless of the countless things I would kinda like to tweak). On the other hand, it's become more obvious to me that while she is upset greatly about the most major tragedy (the divorce), it's not that that has kept her from moving on. It's her peace of mind. She worries about so much else (which I still think could be minimized) that she never can put the divorce to rest. It just lingers among everything else. And with it being the holiday season and all, it would be kind of nice to have a happy home. There's absolutely no way on Earth I'll ever convince her of this concept, but I've really taken to the idea of it. As should you. That is, if you're ever unhappy and can't find a way out of it. If you're happy as it is, don't change anything. Anything, that is, that you can actually control. Ex.- daily routine; you CAN control most of that. Parent divorce- not so much. That's where, again, personal peace of mind comes in. Okay, yeah, you get the idea. This is supposed to be about my LIFE, not philosophical beliefs and values. Just keep all of that in mind. Or not. Your choice.

In case you were annoyed by all of that "nonsense", here's life for ya:

• Woke up at 7 with my iPhone in my hand and the headphones entangled around my neck. Kinda freaky. Probably shouldn't have listened to music while half awake laying in a comfortable bed. Oops.
• Crappy mexican food and cheap Christmas shopping. Joy...oh, and that convo with the mother.
  
• Few hours of NCAA football dominance. Xbox, of course.
  
• Sister had her awkward boyfriend over to "exchange gifts", so watched my Horns' dominate Michigan State. Highlight of the day.
• I'm here. At 10:51 PM. Writing this blog. 3 DAYS IN A ROW!

There you go. Embrace it.

PJB