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YYYAAWWWNNNN....yeah, I'm a bit tired. As I should be after driving back from Dallas (that'd be about 6 hours of driving, y'all). Boo, 6 HOURS, I know. I've made my fair share of 1500+ mile trips in my life, so yes, this was one of the weaker ones. But the difference between those 1500 mile trips and this 330 mile trip is that with the 1500's, you take the mindset pretty early that "Yeah, this is my life for the next few days". 330 just makes 6 hours feel like the longest of your life. At a certain point, one really isn't much better than another.
Another thing that kind of made this a wee-bit more tiring was the thing I did the night before. So, we stayed in The W Hotel in Dallas for a night, instead of cramming into my uncle's spare room. This hotel is something undescribable. I recommend if you are bored, you look at this. Anyways, we had a room on the 14th floor. The TOP of the hotel is the 33rd. Well, you can actually go on the room of this place IF you venture up the stairwell all the way up to the top. So, basically walk the 19 floors (which, after counting, thats 26 steps per floor: a grand total of 494 steps to the top). Me and my brother dared to do it. BAD IDEA. We got to the top, and it turned out that for the holiday break they had it locked. So, we did that all for no reason...another 494 steps back down. On a bum ankle, this is EXTREMELY tiring. It's been sore all day...totally sucks. That's my interesting-not-really story for the day. And the only thing I've got to say since I'm so incredibly tired. Emphasis once again on TIRED. Well, night everyone. Wait, that's too lame of an ending. GET TO BED, NOW!!!!

PJB

Oh, Christmas Time...

-Surprises for everyone!

Ah, Christmas Day has once again came and went. To sum up my holiday in one word: appreciative. While it may not have been the happiest or more cheerful, I am still very thankful for my family and friends, and everything that the Lord has provided me. So, I awoke at 8ish with the anticipation of what awaited under the tree. Can you blame me? Well, as it turned out, my mom didn't want to wake up until NOON, and so we (the kids) all sat around together in the living room until that time. It was a simple, but very wonderful array of gifts. The highlight gift of the morning would probably have to go to my brother's Kinect. Which, in turn, actually becomes all of ours. Muahahaa. Sinister older siblings, we are. I myself received a fair sum of money to save, a decent pair of headphones, and some quite nice clothing. Can't complain a bit (not that during Christmas, I ever would). We all spent hours examining and playing with our new items, so the day went by rather quickly. Mom took another nap, and so we were left to do whatever we wanted. Around 5 she awoke, and we watched yet ANOTHER Christmas movie, this time being some Bing Crosby film. I can't remember the name. Regardless, it was a perfect movie at the time. At the end of this, Christmas dinner was underway, really only having to fix up a few extra things we hadn't done earlier. Fine meal, fair to say. And with that, I'm back here, on muh blog. Super exhausted...but hey, with the winter break comes the opportunity for some oh so wonderful sleeping in! Which right now seems like the most likely outcome. With that, I bid you adieu, and a merry, merry Christmas.

Oh, and enjoy the GIF. Its a cat, if you can't tell.

PJB

Peace of mind; how ya doin?

"If you do not find peace in yourself, you will never find it anywhere else."
-Um, some wise man

There honestly wasn't a name to give credit to in regards to the quote. But I had to use it; it really does some justice and truth to the world. Largely my own. To ultimately be happy, I have found, you gotta be happy with yourself. "Derp, who doesn't know that??!!!" Okay, there is a difference between knowing and understanding. Being happy almost always involves being in a state of peace. Unless you find happiness in risking your life climbing mountains or something. But you get the point. The whole happiness thing hit me today after dealing once again with my depressed mother (divorces do that to ya), trying to comfort her and explain to her that there really is a way to be happy again. I mean, I found happiness after the whole fiasco just days afterwords. But I never have been able to get a grip on what her deal is, and why she's dragged it on for months and months. And that is where, for whatever reason, it hit me. The difference that her and I have as people at the moment is that I AM happy as to where I am as a person in life, and wouldn't trade it for anything (regardless of the countless things I would kinda like to tweak). On the other hand, it's become more obvious to me that while she is upset greatly about the most major tragedy (the divorce), it's not that that has kept her from moving on. It's her peace of mind. She worries about so much else (which I still think could be minimized) that she never can put the divorce to rest. It just lingers among everything else. And with it being the holiday season and all, it would be kind of nice to have a happy home. There's absolutely no way on Earth I'll ever convince her of this concept, but I've really taken to the idea of it. As should you. That is, if you're ever unhappy and can't find a way out of it. If you're happy as it is, don't change anything. Anything, that is, that you can actually control. Ex.- daily routine; you CAN control most of that. Parent divorce- not so much. That's where, again, personal peace of mind comes in. Okay, yeah, you get the idea. This is supposed to be about my LIFE, not philosophical beliefs and values. Just keep all of that in mind. Or not. Your choice.

In case you were annoyed by all of that "nonsense", here's life for ya:

• Woke up at 7 with my iPhone in my hand and the headphones entangled around my neck. Kinda freaky. Probably shouldn't have listened to music while half awake laying in a comfortable bed. Oops.
• Crappy mexican food and cheap Christmas shopping. Joy...oh, and that convo with the mother.
  
• Few hours of NCAA football dominance. Xbox, of course.
  
• Sister had her awkward boyfriend over to "exchange gifts", so watched my Horns' dominate Michigan State. Highlight of the day.
• I'm here. At 10:51 PM. Writing this blog. 3 DAYS IN A ROW!

There you go. Embrace it.

PJB

Mornin, World.

Wow. TWO DAY STREAK! What an accomplishment....I'm personally proud.
So, it's a whole 4 DAYS until Christmas! My, how time flies. Christmas is a great time of year to really reflect on the past, and take appreciation for the future. And of course, the gift of giving. And let's be honest, receiving. It's really the thought that counts though. Kinda sucks though when your dad decides to email your mother what he's getting for everyone, and "accidentally" sends it to you. That was sure a surprising message to wake up to. Just further exemplifies how stupid he is. Doh well. Better get on that bike ride before things really get going today. The day really should have started in my opinion around 9 or 10, but that never really happens over here. Whatever. Move on and grow old.

PJB

GRAWRG. Boom. Break.

Dear self,

Stop being an idiot. And actually stick with one of the simple things you try to commit to. Being this blog. Thanks.

Self

Dear reader,

Like, hardly anyone is reading this right now anyways. I know I wouldn't even bother to check again after waiting a mere 3 MORE MONTHS! You know how it is. You try to commit to some type of daily regimen in order to accomplish what you most want to get done. But then life gets in the way, and that "regimen" goes into the trash as another failed idea. As hard as I seem to try, I just can't throw this blog idea into the wastebasket of failure. I could have come back and glanced at this again, laughed, and deleted it some way or another. But every time I do return (which is obviously not often), I get sucked back into the grand scheme of things and write as if I have been consistently the entire time, but filling the large gaps of nothingness with brief explanations of my life. Most of which isn't hardly relevant anymore. So, that's not gonna happen this time. Okay, actually, here's a brief flashback of the last 3 months:

LIFE

That's all there is to it. I'm alive. There's another tidbit. But really, there's no reason to try and recall that stressful APUSH test that went down in October, or the successes/failures of trying to drive illegally (although it is an interesting story). Regardless, my main focus ONCE AGAIN from here on out is to routinely get some type of information onto this. Whether be a paragraph, or the seemingly usual half page. With the new year coming up, I'd like to get back to sticking to some simple promises. For example; since the beginning of the winter break, I have vowed to bike at least 2 miles a day. So far, 3 days in, that has actually happened. Hopefully will at least continue up until school gets back into session. Even then, I'm sure I could fit some time in to doing it. If I can do it for that, why not for this? Only time will tell, really. Because as it has in the past, Life always finds its way into the equation.

PJB